WAR OF WORDS: Words Losing Decency?

DISCLAIMER: SOME READERS MAY FIND MY ARTICLE BOLD & NASTY BUT IT MAKES SENSE AND I HAVE WRITTEN IT FROM MY OBSERVATION. NO HARD FEELINGS.

When I entered in this gay world, it was very difficult for me to understand and most importantly to remember some of the terms/words which are almost universal in this world now. Some of the words which I learned from childhood mean something else. Objection is not against those words but in the context which they get used and how decently people are using them.

Some popular Words which are now visible everywhere in this world,

1) Top – Upper part. Above. Up. Upside. Fcuker??
I learned ‘Top’ is upper part or up and always used it while framing sentence in the context of Sky and when one of my gay friend told me ‘Top means Fcuker’ I asked but why? Top means he always keeps his partner down and remains up while having sex? Oh, he should buy KAMSUTRA Book lol :P
And we got many proud ‘TOPS’ who say ‘’You know I am Top not a bottom’’. They say it like they can convert into a heterosexual guy at next moment!

2) Bottom – Lower part. Down. Below. Downside. Bitch?? (this is how many treat them)
Like top I also learned word Bottom in the school in the context of a juice jar or a water-well. And after getting term TOP, I am clever enough to know the one who gets fcuked is Bottom but always at bottom? (while getting respect too?)

3) Versatile – I am a VERSATILE guy since my childhood :D Hey, take it in exact dictionary meaning!! This word disappointed me a lot. ‘Versatile simply means a person with various skills, talents & achievements.’ In gay context they got 2 talents and abilities of fcuking & getting fcuked!! Really? Wooow great skills. Big difference in actual meaning and gay world meaning. I feel awkward when my mom praises me infront of guests by saying “My son is Versatile’’ and I feel like asking her “How do you know that?’’ :O

4) Double-Decker – BEST BUS. This is what I know about this word. I realized the gay meaning of this word this year only when another gay friend explained it to me. Double-Decker is BEST Bus which I adore, I love to sit in the TOP part and that to in the front and enjoy city while traveling and taking air on me. Even I also had a double-decker bus toy in my childhood. But here in this case ‘Double Decker means Versatile only’. My reaction was pretty confused and I ask my friend use slangs or cheap words if you want while explaining but I need to know how this word can be a synonym to versatile?? He said in “Double-decker you get two options, TOP part of the vehicle and BOTTOM part of the vehicle to have a FUN journey. Choice is yours! ;)

5) Size – Measurement. But Of WHAT?? Figure? No… Then? In early GAY days some strangers on fb used to ask, “What’s your size?’’. I used to ask them humbly, “Tee-shirt ka ya shoes ka??” Ohh! Innocent Me :P
Then people got to tell me of your dick, and I still said “Sorry, I never counted!” (with ‘^_^’ smiley). Being serious, I found this concept very cheap, You got no business of knowing how long someone got? or tiny one. ‘Jaisa bhi hai, Unka hai’. I just protest this concept of knowing size and I like the way My one BOTTOM friend deals with it, when people ask him SIZE?, He says “Look, I am Bottom so mind business with my ass not with my dick!’’ :D

6) Place – Space. Area. Home. Locality. Fcuk Place??
“Hey dude you got Place?’’ “Yes! I live in Home”
Place has only got restricted to SEX. The actual meaning of this word is losing its essence or already lost? Guy having place is the most successful person and with High Demand. Instead of talking about Home décor, Orphanage, Old-age homes people seek to know more about this PLACE.
“You know? I can’t arrange a place, I told you I don’t have place.’’……… “Are you Homeless?” Level of decency needs to be on it’s PLACE!

7) CAM - Customer Application Module?? Camera?? Ohh you mean…Webcam? Yes I got!
“Good then C2C?”. “Customer to Customer?”. “No, Cam to Cam?” Heard about M2M. Wonder how C2C happens? :)
CAM? This 3 alphabets means wanna have sex online? They made it in short way actually to save typing effort and asking for sex by saying so many things. If ‘YES’ is answer you can expect a big nasty session (If the guy is worth of your expectation). These words are enough to show a person’s nature and level of thinking. Skype has damaged its image because of that.

Some of these words are also popular in heterosexual online world too so blame is not upon gay community only. But as human being I feel bizarre when I see communication getting such a cheap turn, where people are still interested to each-other’s INNER THINGS not in INNER Heart and feelings…
Complaint is not against words but the way they are getting used by people. Such words are losing decency and becoming phenomenon throughout the world.

- Nakshatra

WAR OF WORDS: Straight Profile Vs. Gay Profile

By respecting all privacy concerns I am writing this…

I often feel offended when people ask me.. Do you have any NORMAL account? Can I have your straight ID? Is this your FAKE ID?
Hang on! My any ID and yours too is NORMAL (Being gay is normal), I am not straight so I don’t have such STRAIGHT ID but you may be asking for my Family ID and lastly, I am Being Real & honest here NOT FAKE. Are you??

Let’s clear some concepts to avoid identity crisis:

There are 2 types of profile IN GAY INTERNET LANGUAGE…one is FAKE and other is REAL!! I found these words offensive and insulting. What is Real & Fake..why such dual life atleast on social networking? ..I accept a closet can’t do all on his FAMILY ID (REAL)…But atleast why to call FAKE to the ID in which you are not with your exact identity but express your GENUINE FEELINGS??

I will distinguish your concepts about Facebook Profile/ID:

1) FAKE ID:
What’s that??
FAKE is something which is NOT TRUE. FAKE ID is the profile where People FAKE their identity. When it comes to FAKE name or picture, I can give clean chit as our country is still not on well terms with homosexuality. But you’ll be known as FAKE if you share your FALSE feelings and thoughts, That’s FAKE for me!
So no name or picture but when you FAKE your thoughts you will have a FAKE ID. So you have a FAKE ID?? Your thoughts are Genuine and Real?

So who is FAKE here: Those who portray themselves something different than they are in reality. 

2) REAL ID:
What’s REAL??
REAL is something which is TRUE. REAL ID is the profile where People are with their REAL identity Real Name, Real Picture of yourself, Real thought on EVERYTHING (Including Sexual Orientation especially when you fill up ‘’Interested in : Women’’ on fb) 

So many of you are not being REAL on REAL ID when it comes to sexuality which really makes a big difference there, You just pretend to be a straight which YOU ARE NOT!! SO YOU BEING FAKE…AND THAT MAKE YOUR REAL ID FAKE!! :D funny! Isn’t it?
So is there anyone who got REAL ID here??

So who are REAL here: Those who express themselves openly without caring what will people think about their feelings and expressions on EVERY SINGLE THING. Very Few Are Here.

So if you are not FAKE and not REAL too then what you are…?

Here you are….

Actual ID/Family ID: 

It’s the profile which shows your actual identity mostly with REAL NAME & PICTURES. Mostly you came on facebook with this ID and with your real life friends and family members, relatives are added. Here there is no case of REAL OR FAKE! Family ID is Family ID, BE FAKE OR REAL!

Other ID/Gay Friendly ID:

It’s the profile which DOES NOT SHOW your actual identity in terms of REAL NAME & PICTURES But Your thoughts are REAL, pure and genuine which are in your mind and for any reason you are not able to express them on your Family ID.
Here you express your gay life openly either in good way or bad (choice is yours). But it’s more about your sexual orientation.

So which are the PERFECT TERMS/NAMES for THESE ACCOUNTS?

Straight ID? – NO! By ANY WAY.. “YOU ARE NOT STRAIGHT”

PERFECT NAME is OTHER ACCOUNT for our GAY FRIENDLY ID. Don’t call it FAKE and don’t allow people to call it FAKE, If you are not FAKE!! 

PERFECT NAME is ACTUAL ACCOUNT for our FAMILY ID. Don’t call it REAL and don’t allow people to call it REAL Cuz’ it’s always bad to be and get recognized ‘what you are not’!! 

There are some people like me who got 2 IDs and Their both ID’s are Actual ID (as they are being what they are openly) and Gay Friendly too. 
Remember the words “ACTUAL” & “OTHER”. NOT “STRAIGHT’’ & “FAKE”

And please for welfare of Gay Man-Kind don’t say it NORMAL/ABNORMAL ACCOUNT, GAYS ARE NORMAL HUMAN BEING….MADE BY GOD, LOVED BY GOD TO DO ‘’NORMAL THINGS’’.

So when you talk to someone about this, please make sure you’ll use PROPER WORDS. :)

- Nakshatra

Dealing With Homosexuality : Nitin Lovable

An Article to Deal with Homosexuality (Not for Competition or contest)

Introduction:

Homosexuality literally means involving in sexual activity with same sex. But in real the meaning is lot more than that. One need to understand that sex is not only an act but it’s an expression.

According to Wikipedia definition,

1. "Homosexuality is romantic or sexual attraction or behavior between members of the same sex or gender."

2. As a sexual orientation, homosexuality refers to "an enduring pattern of or disposition to experience sexual, affectionate, or romantic attractions primarily or exclusively to people of the same sex"

In my own words, Homosexuality means - to express your attraction through sexual activity towads same gender on physical, emotional, romantic or behavioral level. And on basis of this we have various sexual orientations like Gay, Bisexual, Lesbian and Transgender etc.

DEALING WITH HOMOSEXUALITY:

The biggest problem is not with society, but the person itself who is homosexual. The first thing which any Homosexual (Gay or lesbian) person should understand that:

1. Accepting yourself first is the first step to deal with your sexuality. Until and unless you accept yourself, don’t expect anyone else will accept you.

2. It is not a disorder, phase, or mental disease.

3. It is not caused by your mother or father or because of heredity.

4. You are not psycho or abnormal, but it is completely natural.

5. it’s no one’s business to judge you on the basis of your sexuality.

6. A very important point, you do not become homosexual because of your childhood plays/mistakes(many refers it as SINS) or because someone abused you in childhood. No one have power to make/convert someone to Gay, straight, lesbian or transgender. It is also not caused because you are not close to your father in male’s case and mother in female’s case. i.e. you didn’t get love of your father, so you became Gay OR you didn’t get love of mother, so you are Lesbian – TOTAL CRAP.

7. Homosexuals are not always feminine (As always shown on TV and Cinemas). So, if they think Homosexuals means Hijaras (Transgender), they are wrong.

8. MYTHS ABOUT HOMOSEXUAL MALES: Many people think that Gays have no penis or small penis so they afraid to have sex with female because of shame, they are impotent, they are afraid of females, they are sex seekers and God hate gays etc. – TOTAL MYTHS.

MY SPIRITUAL ASPECT OF HOMOSEXUALITY:

I came across many people who have many myths and I experienced it from my parents too as I told them about me being Gay. You need to be confident and proud about who you are.

When I accepted myself, that time I wasn’t able to accept myself on spiritual level, as I am religious too. When I explored myself and gained knowledge about homosexuality, I myself found answer to my questions. As someone has said, All the answers of your questions lies inside you, you just need to take little bit efforts to find them. The research, articles, experiences were the keys to unlock those answers. I found out that,

Your Identity is important as it makes you realize that you exist in this world, that you are king of your life, you are free to choose, you are free to make choices, you can love, you can be happy, you can care, you can enjoy life and you can do anything you want. It makes you feel that you are REAL and NOT FAKE. The more you deny your identity, the more you will suffer. So, as I said, accepting yourself, your identity is the first step.

Also know one thing, Nature love diversity, that’s why all the color of rainbow are distinct and not same. But finally, they are COLORS, though they are different from others and have different characteristics, behavior, and impact. The same way, the Identity of yours makes you different from other people, but finally, you are Human Being only. The identity or sexual orientation doesn’t isolate you from being Humans but we personally do when someone hate us, or abuse us, torture us or misbehave with us. Live without fear and face the obstacle in your life with pride.

Remember, God don’t see what your identity or your sexual orientation is. God sees, love in your heart, your respect, kindness and your humanity. God loves Human, and we all are human, just with little differences. But we are created that way, so don’t deny God’s creation. Live your life as who you are, love yourself and others, follow your heart and teach others same. Be proud of who you are, we all here to fulfill our destiny or purpose. If we deny our identity, we will loose purpose to live life. When you don’t have any purpose in life, you are like Zombie. And then I realized that why It is important to know who I am. Cause once you accept yourself, when you realize who you are, it makes your path clear to achieve your goals and fulfill purpose of your life, to live your own life and not others.

Life is meaningless, until you put some meaning into it. If you loose your identity, your life will be lost too. So, do exist in this world as you are and the way you are, Just like a distinct color of rainbow. If the color removes itself or try to change a distinct color to look like other colors, the rainbow will loose its identity.

All the Best to all participant of the competition and thank you for reading my article.
Love you all.
 

- Nitin Lovable

Dealing With Homosexuality : Rajeev Krishnan

Side Effects of Truth Serum

When I came to Mumbai two years ago at the age of seventeen, my idea of homosexuality was only the blurred memory of child molestation I had encountered at the age of twelve, but things had gone a long way since then. I got to meet lots of new people and have some wonderful experiences in the gay world. The past two years gave me some valuable insights into the life style of homosexuals and the popular myths surrounding it.

The most realistic one was the portrayal of gay men as the epitome of artistic excellence. Though many artists are homosexuals, only a few homosexuals are artists, and they are the ones who usually come out of the closet. There is this gay guy in my college who sings, paints, designs, and does most of the art-stuffs, but then again I have this another gay friend whose only art is kissing (oh... I so miss that).

While having a conversation on what movie to watch for a boring Saturday eve, my straight friend had something interesting to say " if you want to watch something really romantic, you might wanna ask Sparsh. He's gay." I was baffled, flattered and confused all at the same time. That's true. Apparently, most of the straight men think that gay men are the most romantic creatures on the planet Earth (maybe, even more than those please-marry-me girls). They think that we walk with a red rose between our teeth. My personal experiences taught me that this wasn't entirely true. Most of the guys I met were either commitment-phobic, NSA-sex lovers, guys whose best pick-up line is "asl?," and guys who could do anything kinky but kiss.

Of all the things that shocked me about homosexuals, the one than pained me the most was the apparent right-on-face hypocrisy. I know many gay guys who are into philosophy, rights movements, PETA supporters, atheists, post-modernist thinkers, skeptics, utopians, and all other blah blahs. But believe me, we are just as prejudice stricken as the straight world is if not more. So, why do I expect gay guys to be more open-minded than their straight counterparts? Well... the very fact that we expect others to open their minds up to accept us puts on us an onus to be open minded about many other things. The renowned author and my idol Arundhati Roy once said that the main problem with the world was to try to simplify what is complicated, and to pick injustices and fight for them. We cannot pick injustices and fight for them. Every issue, every situation is multidimensional and has to be dealt that way only. I had this one gay friend who told me that he hated bi-sexuals and would shoot them if he met any. Bi-sexualophobia is a truth in gay community. Most of the gay guys consider bi-sexuals are experimenters who are in the gay scene just for fun, and that they want to end up only with girls. Well... my take is "let it be." If you don't like it, don't sleep with them, but that doesn't mean you should hate them.

Casteism, racism, regionalism, communalism everything has its fair( or unfair?) share in gay community. We want them to accept us the way we are, but we are reluctant to transcend the barristers of caste, race, national borders, religion that human kind had set up. There was this guy on my friends list whose about-me section on Facebook profile read like a typical matrimonial column in Malayala Manorama: " I'm 23, fair, well-educated, middle-class guy looking for an intelligent, well-educated, Marathi Brahmin of same social stature for a life-long relationship." Ohh yeah... I pity that education which didn't teach you to look beyond class, caste, and region.

The most shocking thing about gay life in India is the way some of us have started to think about homosexuality;that it is an upper middle class, intellectual phenomenon . Many amongst us forget that homosexuality cuts across all barriers, whether that be economic, social, or biological. There's no reason to frown if you see a guy in rugged jeans and old sandals without branded cooling glass at a gay meet, because they too are a part of what makes the gay community. Not all of us roam around in Peppy Jeans shirts, or Gucci cologne, and when it comes to style, some of us can be real snobs.

Now, that's too much negative about us. Nopes... I'm not cynical, and I am gong to prove that. We might not be the "adarsh-bharathiya guys/gals," but we are not afraid to love, and to stand for whom we love. We might not bring "gaay-jaisi bahus" to our homes, but our boy friends are nothing short of a stallion.
We work hard and we party harder. That's why Sam Austin said "
homosexuality is God's way of insuring that the truly gifted aren't burdened with children."

- Rajeev Krishnan

Dealing With Homosexuality : Shahid Grewal

Dosto me Shahid aur ye meri story hai tabki jab me apne orientation ke bare me open hua tha mere doston ke samne….
13august 2007ko me Mumbai aaya tha engineer banana ke liye.Mujhe frnds banana bahot pasand tha isliye jaldi hi achhe dost ban gaye…Hamara ek group ban gaya 6girls and 5boys total 11… Bahot enjoy karte the hum,sath me ghumna,khelna,padhna,lectures bunk karna.Mere frnds meri life ban gaye the aisa kabhi laga hi nahi ki Mumbai me mera koi relative nahi hai.

Par wahi hua jo har group me hota hai,jhagda aur woh bhi ladki ko lekar..Hamara last year tha december 2010
Pratik mere group ka ek ladka woh Puja se pyar karne laga.Puja bhi hamare group me hi thi.Puja mujhe uska best frnd kehti thi aur apni sari bate share karti thi,woh bhi Pratik ko pyar karti thi par mere sath jyada time bitati thi bcz humdono ka ghar paas me hi tha.Bas isi wajah se clg me Hamare charche hona shuru hogaya aur Pratik bhi humdono pe shaq karne laga.Undono ke jhagde badhne lage.Puja mujhe best frnd manti thi to Pratik mera best frnd tha.Use meri wajah se badi taklif hoti,woh mujhse nafrat karne laga tha use lagta me Puja se pyar karta hu isliye me undono me janbujhkar jhagde lagata hu.Par me Gay hu ye baat mujhe 8th std me hi pata chal gayi thi isliye me nahi chahta thi ki meri wajah se dono ka relation tute.Maine pratik ko bahot samjhaya par woh kuch sunne ko tayar nahi tha isliye maine decide kiya ki me inko sab sach bata dunga so tht woh samajh jaye aur unki misundrstnding dur hokar sab thik hojaye.Maine socha ye 10mere best frnds hai fir inhe koi fark nahi padega mere sexual orientation se.Isliye maine ek din Pratik ko bata diya ki me Puja se pyar nahi karta kyunki me Gay hu,ye sunkar woh waha se uthke chala gaya aur usne pure group members ko msg karke bata diya even Puja too.Aur tabse meri life worst hogayi.

Mere doston ne mera sath chhod diya..koi mujhse nafrat karta,kisiko mujhe dekhke ghinn aati to koi has ke chala jata.Puja meri best frnd usne mujhse baat karna band kar diya,Kisi ladke ko galti se bhi touch hojata to woh gandi gandi baate bolte,ab mere sath koi tiffin share nahi karta tha,koi mere sath class me ek bench pe nahi baithta,bolte the ki tu to mujhpe try maara to…ye baate mujhe bahot hurt karti,unka behavior dard pohochata..par phir limit cross hogayi mere kuch so called best frnds mere paas aakar bole “Shahid ye gay kuch nahi hota tu confused hai…tum ek kaam kar” aur unhone mujhe solutions batana shuru kar diya,
1.tu psychologist ke pas ja bcz ye ek mental disorder hai.
2.tu mere sath bazaar me chal n ladki ke sath sex kar fir tujhe pata chal jayega ki tu gay nahi hai.
3.tu ye me gay hu sochna band kar de agar tu ye sab chhodke kisi ladki ko gf banayega tab hum tujhse dosti karenge otherwise not.

That was limit so maine unhe bataya ki gay matlab sirf sex nahi hota woh sari feelings hoti hai jo ek ladka ladki ke liye feel karta hai,ye koi disorder nahi jo medicine se thik hojaye,aur tum mere dost ho aur Gay meri identity hai me apni identity kaise chod sakta hu aur me tumhe bhi nahi chodna chahta isliye plz mujhe meri identity ke sath apnao….ye sunkar sab gusse se chale gaye.me disappoint hogaya ki 21st century ke Mumbai me rehne wale logon ki ye mentality? Weird tha…tabse unhone mujhse baat karna band kar diya..ab har jagah me akela tha,classrooms,canteen,library. Mere sirf gay hone ki wajah se mujhse meri sari khushiya chin gayi…Din gujre aur mera engg complete hogaya,last day of college par bhi kisine mujhse baat nahi ki aur sab chale gaye apni apni life me mano mujhe hamesha ke liye bhul gaye ho.
Aaj me akela hu, sabki bahot yaad aati hai bura lagta hai ki unhe meri kabhi yaad nahi aati,kya gay hona itni badi baat hai jo woh meri 4saaal ki frndship bhul gaye…Dard hota hai aur lagta hai ki ‘kaash unhone meri sachhai se jyada meri imandari dekhi hoti,mere sexual orientation se jyada mere nature aur behavior ko importance diya hota,mere sexual choice jyada mere dosti me believe kiya hota…’ Jiske liye maine apni identity reveil ki woh Pratik n Puja aaj ek happy couple hai aur shayad shadi bhi kar lenge,woh mujhe,mere sacrifies ko yaad nahi karte par me khush hu ki mera balidan vyarth nahi gaya…

Aaj maine sochke rakha hai agar koi mera dost banna chahta hai to use mujhe mere identity ke sath swikarna hoga aur yahi sochkar me fb pe aaya apni tanhaai ke sath aur yaha mujhe bahot khubsoorat dost mile isliye me fb ka shukragujar hu…Aur ab lagta hai agar hum hi apne identity se sharmate rahenge to log to use bura hi manenge kyunki hamari madat hame khud karni hai aur koi nahi aayega…jab hum apne aap pe proud feel karne lagenge tabhi log hume notice karne lagenge aur shayad ekdin hum ye jung jeet jayenge..
Aur lagta hai shayad ek din mere dost samajh jayenge ki straight aur gay ko banana wala ek hi hai to hum agar use nafrat nahi karte to gay se kyu kare….aur shayad ekdin Pratik aur Puja mujhe jarur call karenge apni shadi pe bulane ke liye……)))))))

Aaj me ek baat samajh gaya hu ki jo apne aap ki respect nahi karta uski duniya respect nahi karti…Isliye dosto jab apne aapko mirror me dekho to sharmindagi nahi garv karo gay hone pe… Kyunki hum bhi Insaan hai aur hame bhi respectfull life jine ka haq hai………

- Shahid Grewal

Dealing With Homosexuality : Ïshqzääðä Shîvâm Sîñgh

Gяσωιиg υρ ιs ∂ємαи∂ιиg αи∂ cЋαℓℓєиgιиg
ŧαsк ƒσя єνєяy α∂σℓєscєиŧ. σиє ιмρσяŧαиŧ αsρє¢ŧ ƒσямιиg σиє's sєxυαℓ ι∂єиŧιŧy. αℓℓ ¢Ћιℓ∂яєи єxρℓσяє αи∂ єxρєяιмєиŧ. σиє ιмρσяŧαиŧ sєxυαℓℓy αs ραяŧ σƒ иσямαℓ ∂єvєℓσρмєиŧ. ŧЋιs sєxυαℓ вєЋαvισυя мαy вє ωιŧЋ мємвєяs σƒ ŧЋє sαмє σя σρρσsιŧє sєx. ƒσя мαиy α∂σℓєscєиŧs, ŧЋιикιиg αвσυŧ αи∂ / σя єxρєяιмєиŧιиg ωιŧЋ ŧЋє sαмє sєx мαy ¢αυsє ¢σи¢єяиs αи∂ αиxιєŧy яєgαя∂ιиg ŧЋєιя sєxυαℓ σяιєиŧαŧισи. ƒσя σŧЋєяs, єvєи ŧЋσυgЋŧs σя ƒαиŧαsιєs мαy ¢αυsє αиxιєŧy.

Homosexuality is the persistent sexual and emotional attraction to someone of the same sex. It is part of the range of sexual expression. Many gay and lesbian individuals first become aware of and experience their homosexual thoughts and feelings during childhood and adolescence. Homosexuality has existed throughout history and across cultures. Recent changes in society's attitude toward homosexuality have helped
some gay and lesbian teens feel more comfortable with their sexual orientation. In other aspects of their development, they are similar to heterosexual youngsters. They experience the same kinds of stress, struggles, and tasks during adolescence.
Parents need to clearly understand that homosexual orientation is not a mental disorder. The cause(s) of homosexuality are not fully understood. However, a person's sexual orientation is not a matter of choice. In other words, individuals have no more choice about being homosexual than heterosexual. All teenagers do have a choice about their expression of sexual behaviors and lifestyle, regardless of their sexual orientation. Despite increased knowledge and information about being gay or lesbian, teens still have many concerns. 

These include: 

* feeling different from peers;

* feeling guilty about their sexual orientation;

* worrying about the response from their
families and loved ones;

* being teased and ridiculed by their peers;

* worrying about AIDS, HIV infection, and other sexually transmitted diseases;

* fearing discrimination when joining clubs,
sports, seeking admission to college, and finding
employment;

* being rejected and harassed by others.

Gay and lesbian teens can become socially isolated, withdraw from activities and friends, have trouble concentrating, and develop low self-esteem. They may also develop depression. Parents and others need to be alert to these signs of distress because recent studies show that gay/lesbian youth account for a significant number of deaths by suicide in adolescence.
It is important for parents to understand their teen's homosexual orientation and to provide emotional support. Parents often have difficulty accepting their teen's homosexuality for some of the same reasons that the youngster wants to keep it secret. Gay or lesbian adolescents should
be allowed to decide when and to whom to disclose their homosexuality. Parents and other family members may gain understanding and support from organizations such as Parents,
Families and Friends of Lesbians and Gays
(PFLAG).

- Ïshqzääðä Shîvâm Sîñgh

Dealing With Homosexuality : Mo N Ey

Osho on Homosexuality- Accept whosoever you are. No condemnation

Question - Dear Osho, today you spoke of homosexuality and let us laugh at the idea of all men walking arm-in-arm through the streets and calling each other 'darling' laughter is good, of course, but sometimes it has an edge of mockery. As a Gay person, I felt put down at that moment. Please will you talk about how gay people or blacks or jews or any other minority may receive and accept such laughter.

Osho - Pradipam, You are not the only gay person here. We have many gay guys, and many lesbian ladies too. This is a miniature world -- I have all kinds of people here; my garden contains all kinds of flowerings, all kinds of plants. It is less a garden, more a jungle. And I accept all -- wild plants and all. Everybody is welcome.

Why did only you become disturbed? There are very famous gay guys here. In fact, I never knew, Pradipam, that you were also one of them. Why did you become disturbed? Why has nobody else taken any offence? They have learnt to accept -- because that is my whole teaching! Accept whosoever you are. No condemnation, no judgement, no evaluation. If you are a homosexual, so what?! Enjoy it! God has made you that way. That is his way of expressing himself through you. And there have been great homosexuals -- from Socrates onwards.

If you look at the long history of homosexuals, you will be surprised: they have had better company than the heterosexuals. In fact, great talented poets, painters, musicians, artists -- all had a tendency towards homosexuality. There is something in it, and that something has to be understood -- why artists, painters and poets? Because these are the inventive people -- they are never satisfied with things as they find them; they try to do new things.

Now, heterosexuality is a natural phenomenon; it is simply a given fact. The inventive people start trying new ways to relate; they are imaginative. Just falling in love again and again with a woman or with a man seems to be routine. They would like to try some new experiments. These are the people who have invented homosexuality. They are inventors.
And some have gone even a little further ahead: they have become bisexuals. Now the bisexual thinks the homosexual is a little behind. The bisexual is more fluid -- can adjust with a woman, can adjust with a man. He has far more opportunities of love-making. He will never be starved; he can always find a lover, a beloved.


You must be feeling guilty somehow deep down; that's why you became offended. Otherwise, you would have laughed and enjoyed the joke. And, in fact, I am not responsible for saying those words -- guess who is responsible?... And I don't think you can guess. The Pope!

The Pope went on a journey to the Holy Land. On the last day he went to the Mountain of Calvary and said his prayers. He walked down the hill looking very holy and solemn with his incense-bowl swinging from his hand. A homosexual who had been watching him from a distance came up to the Pope, pulled very gently at his sleeve and said, "Hello, darling, your handbag is on fire."

I got that idea from the Pope. But, Pradipam, please don't be offended -- I am not against anybody. Blacks or Jews or homosexuals -- I am not against anybody. My whole message is one of total acceptance. But I don't invent these jokes: my sannyasins go on sending them to me. So if you have some jokes against heterosexuals, please send them to me. Just whatsoever jokes I receive, I use.

Sometimes a few women have written letters to me saying, "Your jokes are always against women." What can I do? Send me jokes against men! I have no interest in inventing jokes -- people go on sending me them. Send any kind of joke and I will use it.
But this guilty feeling is not good. Deep down you are feeling as if you are doing something wrong -- that's why it hurts. You have a wound inside; you may have covered it, but the wound is there. And if you understand me, uncover the wound. Only when you uncover it can it be healed. Let the sun heal it and the wind heal it. Uncover it!

It is perfectly right, whatsoever you are. It is NOBODY else's business. If two men feel good being together, it is nobody else's business to interfere. No law, no government, no religion, no church, should come in. If they BOTH are happy, it is perfectly their own decision. And we want the world to be happy -- and these two persons are contributing their happiness to the world by being happy together.

If two women feel good being with each other, the world is happier for that, better for that. Don't make them feel guilty unnecessarily. But guilt persists -- because down the ages you have been taught homosexuality is a sin; down the ages you have been taught that this is one of the greatest sins. You may be surprised to know: there have been states in America, just a hundred years ago, where the punishment for homosexuality was sentence for life. And there have been countries where one was beheaded if one was caught in any homosexual relationship. Humanity has been so stupid in the past. And we ALL carry those conditionings deep down in the collective unconscious.

A ventriloquist -- maybe it was Sarvesh -- was driving in the country when he was attracted to a large farm. He asked for and was given a tour. As he was shown through the barn, the ventriloquist thought he would have some fun. He proceeded to make one of the horses talk. The hired hand, wide-eyed with fear, rushed from the barn to the farmer. "Sam," he shouted, "those animals are talking! If that little sheep says anything about me, it is a damned lie!"

That's how guilt comes up. You cannot hide it -- it has its way of manifesting. You condemn your homosexuality -- that's how your question has arisen. Otherwise, you would have laughed, you would have enjoyed it! And unless a man is capable of laughing at himself, he does not know what laughter is and the beauty of laughter. To laugh at others is very simple; it is violent, it is cruel. To laugh at oneself has something spiritual about it. But we go on hiding behind rationalizations.

Now you think the homosexual minority is being offended. One thing you should know: I am neither a heterosexual, nor a homosexual, nor a bisexual -- so I cannot be against this and for that. I belong no more to the world of sex. Sex has no more meaning -- that's why I can accept you all.

Your so-called saints will not be capable of accepting you all, because they belong to the world of sex; they themselves are sexual beings still -- repressed, obsessed, maybe against, but to be against means you are still obsessed. I am neither for nor against, neither for this nor for that. It simply does not matter! It is simply games that people enjoy playing -- it is fun, that's all. It has nothing serious about it. It is childish. Heterosexual, homosexual, bisexual, all is childish.

One day I hope you will grow beyond all these. And then a totally different phenomenon happens: in the East we have called it BRAHMACHARYA. The West has no equivalent word for it -- because in the West consciousness has never penetrated to that height. The word 'celibacy' is a poor translation, and with ugly connotations.

'Celibacy' simply means not getting involved in sex; it is a negative word. The celibate may not be beyond sex; he may be simply withholding. BRAHMACHARYA actually means: living like a God. The literal meaning is: living like God. What does it mean? -- living like God. It means sex has simply disappeared: that smoke no more surrounds the flame of your being; your flame of being is smokeless. And when sex has utterly disappeared, the whole energy that is contained in sexuality is released in love, in compassion.

But by feeling offended, you exposed yourself. In a way this is good. Don't feel guilty any more. And it is always good to expose yourself in utter nudity. Don't be afraid, because that is the only way to, know oneself -- to expose oneself.

According to legend, Sigmund Freud and Carl Jung once travelled together on a train, and during the journey Jung began to analyse Freud, probing deeper and deeper into the man's psyche in an attempt to pinpoint the origin of his neurosis. Freud was being his evasive self, so when Jung came to within a hairbreadth of Freud's essence, he asked impatiently for Freud to reveal his innermost being, his true, real self.
"I cannot," Freud refused. "To do so would be to give up my authority."
At that, Jung sat back and sighed, "Then you have already lost it."

The real man is always ready to expose himself to the very core, because he is not afraid. Freud saying this, "I cannot expose my real self because to do so would be to give up my authority," is simply saying that he is carrying a pseudo self around himself. He carried it his whole life -- although he was the originator of psychoanalysis he was never psychoanalysed. Many times his disciples approached him and said, "We can psychoanalyse you," but he always refused. He was afraid.

This legend is very symbolic -- he was afraid to expose himself as he was. And the fear was of losing authority. But a REAL man of authority is never afraid of losing it. He CANNOT lose it. There is NO way of losing it. And this is the difference between a man of authority and an authoritative man. The authoritative man has NO real authority; he is a pretender. The man of authority can expose himself absolutely, because his authority is not something imposed from the outside -- it is his very core, his experience, his authenticity. Jung did well when he sat back and said, Then you have already lost it."

It is said, from that day the rift started between Jung and Freud; then it could not be bridged again. And I cannot say that only Jung was responsible for the rift; in fact, basically Freud himself was responsible. Freud was suffering from many kinds of things which can be called neurotic. Still he would not allow himself to be analysed.

My whole work here is to help you to expose yourself in your utter nudity. Whatsoever you are, wherever you are, I am going to seek and search you out and bring you into the light. Sometimes it hurts, it shocks; sometimes you feel angry, offended, but please be patient. This is surgery -- it is bound to be painful.

- Mo N Ey

Dealing With Homosexuality : NIrmaan HAlf HEarted

Letter to my mom,

Dear mom,
when i born u loved me like anything as i grown up my habits start involving in girls that also didnot mind ur motherhood.
Than i grown up and be an establish man then also your motherhood didnot affected.
You told me to marry a girl you want. I deny, but your motherhood still didnot affected.
You always give me shoulder to cry, hand to raise , shadow in sunlight, give sight to drowning me.
But, now when i accepted towards you that what am i , where your motherhood gone.
You and daddy both force me to think like straight , to marry a girl , not to be friend with boys .
This is not what i listened about mothers and motherhood , i think people and infact you prefer the sexuality instead of humanity .....~€~

dhaash, i think its not your fault . The society and people make you to think like that to think like that i am ill person and it is my choice to be with man or woman.
Your motherhood never obliged you when you are letting me to get out from house. Your motherhood never obliged you when you were watching me beaten by dad.
Your motherhood never obliged you when you were locking me in the room.
Where is your love, your affection, your MOTHERHOOD.
So, for this now a better salute to this world . Hope you 'd understand me that i never do this..
Bbye mom .. I am quiting the world.
But, my last world...
`GOD don't make me GAY in my next birth `
your son
niru :[

- NIrmaan HAlf HEarted

Dealing With Homosexuality : Fioravandi Pietro Fleming

Being Gay is a journey that has been destined for you even prior to your birth, Its is not something you can go out and purchase over a counter or stand under the stars on a starry night and make a wish by saying..." I wish to be gay".

For me it has been an incredible journey with many pitfalls but it was entirely up to me to stand by whom I am and above all believe in who I am. It is vitally important for all of us to realize that nobody but nobody can bring you happiness and contentment but YOU!!! From a very tender age I realized that I had different feelings within my in comparison to the other boys in our neighborhood. I wanted to do entirely different things to them. This , of course, in self posed a problem. Hence, i moved into a world of fantasy whereby I could lose myself and be "happy". This spared me insults and nastiness from my friends. Living in the real world at that age was already difficult.

In my adolescent years the struggle started. My siblings realized that their brother was different and started avoiding me. Tears became my everyday companion and I must admit gave me tons of relief. My high school years were absolutely hell!!!! I was the outcast in more ways than...but this did not deter me from being whom I am. I was stoned (and it hurt more emotionally than it did physically). Looking back, today I can smile because at the end of the day I did not betray myself. I pushed through to the bitter end.

I got engaged in my early twenties when I started my Nursing career. This was to blend in with the rest of society. I in actual fact I was running away from the truth because I was in a new city where no-one knew me. That year of being engaged was hell, not for her but for me. I was living a lie and that did not rest well with me at all. Not going into great detail the engagement ended and I could sigh with relief...I was free from my lies. There is a saying in the English language......THE TRUTH SHALL SET YOU FREE" Boy It surely did it for me. To this day i am still on very good terms with her. That is indeed a Bonus for me. The drama with my family was lengthy and very bitter. That is is story on its own!!! I endured their insults, beatings as well, from time to time. I still would not budge..".I AM GAY". I was cursed, avoided, slandered...yet I bore my cross with a smile. "To Him who waits. it shall be given" My wait for acceptance was long and tedious....but it eventually arrived . Today my entire family loves me for whom I am and my perseverance. Having a relationship in the gay world is no different to the straight world, a relationship between two people, irrespective of their sexual orientation is a way of life and presents with every day problems e.g. the insecurities, jealousy, betrayal, nastiness etc. I learnt vastly from my relationships( had one for 8 years and for 18 years). My gay relationships gave me a sense of belonging, a sense of responsibility, and the experience of being loved. Today I am at peace and very content. I refuse to be a bitter person because of the manner of how I was treated as a Gay man. We have walked a long difficult road so that the younger generation can live is a society where there is no discrimination between the sexual orientation of people.

Shakespeare clearly stated" And above all things unto thine own self be TRUE". Have the determination to believe in yourself irrespective of the hassles society places on you. My tale is one of many that is known to many other gay men and I know they will identify identify with me.

For all my bitter experiences I have a broad smile on my face and can say"The journey was worth my persecution!!!!

-  Fioravandi Pietro Fleming

Dealing With Homosexuality : Roy Adi

Homosexuality........!!!!!!!

homosexuality means to have attraction towards the same sex. is it wrong ? if yes so why it is wrong ? i don't think that it is wrong. love is like a bird. it can fly in the sky any where. with his own friends or with other animals and many more. i mean to say that love is blind it could be with an one weather with the same sex or with the other sex. when a baby is in his mothers womb the mother loves him/her instead of knowing weather it is a male or female or gay or anything else. that is love. i don't think being homosexual is a crime we all are also human beings so why the society discriminates us ? why we are afraid of telling it to any one ? why? why? why?
this is not fare at all....

Dealing with homosexuality is a topic which seriously does not have any end. its an endless topic and its very difficult too. a person who is a man but loves a man........!!

Such a great topic to gossip for others. nobody thinks what he is feeling. nobody wants to keep himself at his place and think according to him. nobody is with him. finally it results in depression, loneliness,lack of self confidence etc. but why ? because the world is full of ego. of any 1 is two steps ahead of him he will pull down him by doing any thing. without thinking what will be its result. i am the live example of it. when people wants anything from it i do everything for them but when it is my turn they show me a huge thumb. in the race when ii am with them then its fine but when i am 2 steps ahead they pull me down by abusing me or making fun of my homosexuality. its a very difficult task to be a homosexual person. just hiding the matter that i am homosexual from the world is too difficult. in every moment, in every path of life i have to suffer with the abusing of others, suckling words, shamefulness and all. but on the other hand little little moments i love to keep which gives me respects. a life of dignity, one more chance to explore the world, one more chance to live. hmmmmm at the same time its very difficult to share your feelings to any one, to get a life partner. and if i got then again a problem.... if anyone came to know about what will happen ? how would be i able to stay in the society ? people would laugh at me....!!! why society....?? its my life society will not live it . why they want to kill my dreams ? why the society don't want to accept it ? society society society........!!!!!! this is the matter.

so at last i jst want to say that it is really very difficult to be homosexual. there is a line in hindi " bhagvan ne jo b is duniya m bnaya hai soch smjh kr hi bnaya hai " then why we are not accepting the creation of god.

thank u all for reading.......
luv u we 4 u.........

- Roy Adi

Dealing With Homosexuality : Ved Roy

Homosexual/gay/story/incident/scientific terms/google.....zizzz

from the time I read about the topic on the wall of WE4YOU,am thinking on it from then.I asked Arnab -"what should I write".He told me -"whatever you want to". What does it mean- I said to myself and I again read the post"the

article should be short". Short well this topic is so diverse and complex, if I would write a novel on it,that also would not justify the topic. 

 

So I thought why not think "Out of box" and I ran to mother and asked how she deals with us. She said chopping the vegetables as god with little devils.Then I
called my friend and asked how he deals with his girlfriend.He said -"as Manmohan Singh deals with Mamta and other allies",I thought I touched the wrong chord so I disconnected the line.So here I am more confused than earlier how I deal with my homosexuality. Should I scream on road/or bang
my head or do what.Is it a bad luck...that I am homosexual.I am a lonely guy,I want somebody to love,I am so depressed.Then suddenly my mother came and switch on the light come outside see a baby bird is doing something.I came out and see a baby bird just out of shell trying to fly and repeatedly was falling down from branch and was trying again.At the same time I realized is not am in same situation also trying to deal with my homosexuality.But hey do I have to deal with it.I mean
that small bird also know it has to learn to fly and I also have to learn to make it a part of my life.Then why think on it which is of no use.Does my homosexuality help me if I dont perform in my work/or is it a hindrance if i travel on road.NO nobody cares for it.

 

Millions walk on earth and nobody has time to see you are homosexual or not.Then why I have to deal with it.Like my body features its part of my life.I cannot do away with it,so its fine.I am not walking with written on my head am a sad homosexual.Why should I ?

So am not dealing with but am living with it my indefinite dreams of my life.I know its not clear but hey friends in life its not necessary to be every time clear.Like I said its my life and I am living with it.

 

- Ved Roy

Dealing With Homosexuality : Jim Clifford

I did everything in my life, as a good boy, and after high school went to college and made 99% marks. As I said, I did everything very well but tackle the thought of my sexuality. I excelled in everything I had done, even took 4 years of private lessons in songwriting and music theory from a magnificent teacher... I still write and play today....

I felt I knew nothing about my sexuality. Though in my subconscious I knew something was different. I did not want to be exculpated from those around me...... So I did everything else I could in my life, tackling every aspect except my sexuality...

So I became a good songwriter, I graduated college, and entered my career, and then it happened.

I was in my neighborhood supermarket, in the produce section, imagine that, of course, and Ronny came up to me and asked may I help you? We engaged in a simple nice conversation, he asked if I would have lunch. I said Yes. I lived two blocks away, we had a nice luncheon in my apartment, and he left back to work. Then I noticed he left his jacket.

A day later, he called and said "I left my jacket, may I come and pick it up?"

He then asked me if I would like to go out with him.... I said yes.... not knowing what to expect.

In those days, the gay clubs were exclusive and members only, and he took me to every club in West Hollywood. We danced, we had a good time, it was bliss.

Then it happened that we made love one night, and it was heaven, my first time... oh I fell in love that night.... no details needed here, just to say it was heaven....

I immediately called my family and friends and said I was in love, and the response was yes, with whom? I said with a BOY named Ronny. Oh? Mama said she always knew, she loved me and she loved me and always wanted me to be happy. Sister had a lot of questions... my brother had no questions just said he loved me... my other sister said I know my dear brother, I love you.

We had a torrid love affair for three months. Ronny took me to all the best clubs, and I was so excited to be in these places, it was so comfortable... so many kinds of people, every ethnicity, every culture and guys from many countries... yet all I could see is that they were all gay... my people....!

Three months, it ended. I was devastated. I cried, walking home for 2 miles in the rain... I was crying hard, but the rain hid my tears..... I was so crushed.... I cried the whole night....

The days passed, and I was able to go to the clubs Ronny invited me to, and I met new friends who were gay. I had not known a gay person before Ronny. The music was wonderful, I met new friends, and I felt my life had finally started....

I never thought I was in the closet as I had announced to my family and friends as soon as I had my first boyfriend. I lost half my friends. No matter here... I kept all of my family.

From then I have felt forever free, to be myself, my family and remaining friends loved me, no matter how I was, for I was born this way....

I did meet up with Ronny again, and we had remained good friends for many years until he moved away.... there were no bad feelings, only a love of friendship.... and in my heart I have always been thankful for his love and friendship with me...

It's been a long journey, it did not happen overnight, but it took years for me to be comfortable to say YES I AM GAY... and please,my family, if you have to vote on gay marriage, think of me, your sweet cousin, nephew, grandson, son, I AM GAY, think of me and think of how I want to live my life.... FREEEEEEEEEEE.... free to marry the one I love.... free to be me........

Now years ahead, my family loves me dearly and I am the favored "son" though my mama and grandma are in heaven. I am still the favored one.... they love me dearly... and they wish the most happiness for me... to find my love and to live my life with abandonment of conventions and love freely... and now at my age I have found my true love after all these years that I have waited....for so very long, for the one.... and finally I am free....

Bless all my brothers... I love you all dearly... keep the faith, keep true to your values and wishes... your desire for true love... for it will happen...

- Jim Clifford